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when all you face is tired days,
And the light you saw is just a killing ray,
You can count on me,
I'm your good estacy.

Salahku Dalam Mencari Waktu Tiada Ampun

wujudnya aku

untuk mengisi

juga menemani

wujudnya kau

untuk mewali

juga melindungi

aku isi hidup kau

aku teman sepi engkau

agar kau tahu aku mahu kau lindung

agar kau tahu aku mahu sembunyi

di kala hujan luka cederakan aku

selama itu

aku masih mahu engkau

masih menagih engkau

cuma aku perlu waktu

untuk memberi kesanggupan

untuk mencurah pengorbanan

sampai keyakinan itu datang

kau hanya perlu ku jemput

untuk pujakan aku buat selamanya

untuk sama2 warnakan kasih kita

namun

cepat benar kau robohkan tempat kita sama2 bebat lara

cepat benar kau robohkan tempat kita sama2 cipta asmara

apa salahku dalam mencari waktu?

tujuh puluh lima

"maaf atas segala prejudis,derhaka,dan meradang yang tak perlu.
kamu semua manusia paling manis di saat tak terjangka. terima kasih tuhan, engkau buat aku jaga."

mereka, aku hargainya, sampai bila-bila.
dan jika boleh, bahagi nyawaku yang masih tertinggal,beri sahaja pada mereka.
aku mahu mereka hidup paling lama,paling gembira.

The Pink Sky

I looked at the sky and thought of my life
The blessed serenity that was never mine
I was denied so much even from the beginning
Exiled to the place where the sun doesn't shine

I peered through the window looking at the rain
The calmness of dawn keeping me sane
Even when the sky was majestically pink
Darkness surrounded me like my second skin.

ME? LAME. =(

Actually I am a kind of person with full of ideas. But I don’t know why, now, I can’t even think of something interesting instead of, eating? Yup~! I can’t stop chewing. My mouth is never been emptied. “Ada ja benda nk kunyah!” Gosh! Another few weeks I will turn into a fat-ass ugly creature with long hair. Hahaha…

Suddenly I miss my family. My abah, umi, kakak, and adik-adik. Wonder what they have been doing now? Kakak just SMS'ed me, telling me how much she is missing me.(aku tipu ja ni, bertuah la sgt dia nak gtau yang dia rindu aku. hahaha). She is trying to pamper me as I am going to teach English in an elite school. Deymm it! Sangat mencuakkan. And also to think on an interesting and creative lesson plan everyday. Arghhhh! Penat sial! I feel like screaming out loud and jump off the highest peak of KL tower. Buat bungee jumping ka. Menarik! hahaha...

Whatever it is, I still manage to produce a poem entitled "TEARS".

My tears didn’t fall last night,

I’ve tried to make it fall,

Even a drop, I failed,

I have been heartless,

Upon the warm hand that held mine before,

Upon the tender lips that kissed mine before,

Upon the figure that I’d been desired before,

Where all the passion goes?

Why am I no longer hunger for lust and love?

Maybe,

I am being heartless.

p/s: Thx again to Hope for inviting me to join this blog and 'mencurahkan' sedikit sumbangan. Nice one Hope!

its okay

its raining so its okay
for me to cry
silently
in this cold rain

watching you
a miles from me
being wrap warmingly
by a hand that is not mine

since its raining so its okay
for my heart
to beat so painfully

because u r smiling
even if its not for me

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Harus Bagaimana

waktu aku bertukar nota2 cinta, bersama dakwat berwarna segala sebagai tanda cinta yang penuh warna-warni, aku ditawakan.
bilang mereka, 'monyet sudah pandai bercanda'.

waktu aku boleh baca isihatinya dengan tukaran satu sen per mesej dan ayat yang boleh diringkas, aku ditawakan.
bilang mereka, 'cinta tidak perlu diselidik seharian, dilafaz semalaman'.

waktu aku dipimpin ke gerai keperluan dan ditaja lalu boleh mengangkat apa saja mahu, aku ditawakan.
bilang mereka, 'cinta boleh ditukarganti semudahnya'.

waktu aku pertahan segala melebihi syahjihan pada mumtaznya, melebihi romeo pada julietnya, melebihi apa adanya aku, aku ditawakan.
bilang mereka, 'apa kau sudah buta?'.

jadi,
aku harus bagaimana?

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I was in heaven for the past few weeks,
I got lost there and didn't want to come back;
My heart is weak, very weak,
but you said that your heart race at the thought of me;
So I jump back into reality
and feel calm for the rest of the day.